This post is for everyone who is thinking of leaving Christianity, or is struggling with the process.
No one overcomes a lifetime of indoctrination right away. Most of the time it leaves hidden traps that we never imagined could be there until they’re tripped. The Recovering From Religion website offers some perspectives and resources that might help you. If you need more help than that the Secular Therapy Project can help you find out if there’s a therapist close to you familiar with religious trauma.
For myself I suffered through many doubts and problems. I realized it’s a lot like trying to break a bad habit in that you can’t just walk away from it and expect to be fine. You have to replace the old bad habits with new, healthy ones.
So please be patient with yourself. Reach out to people in this community and others who understand what you’re going through. Do not listen to people who try to warn you against thinking for yourself. They may tell themselves they’re trying to help you, but they’re mostly trying to silence their own doubts. Christianity makes much more sense when you don’t think about it.