edit - Yeah I play video games with violence too, my point is that video games are a mirror that exposes a less brutal image of ourselves than we are convinced of. The truth of what we desire is as often silly or altruistic as it is selfish or violent, even in the realm of fantasy where the violence is unreal as everything else.
Do it slaughter millions of humans in games across different genres? Yes, I do and it’s great fun!
Do I have any intention to kill even one human in real life? Hell no, I don’t even want to hurt others!
Wait until you get older and see how the world runs, you’ll get lots of reasons of wanting to hurt others!
Ah yes but video games are unrelated.
How much older?
I don’t know, I was only guessing. And having fun too of course.
So I was guessing 20 to 30 for you which would be an average I pulled out of my butt (and could of course be wildly wrong) I could be almost double your age.
Oh and also not being neurotypical adds to having a very dark world view (like, probably, we keep negatives while NT forget them).