I have aphantasia and I love so many colors! I love looking at them, the more so because I can’t remember them later. But every time I look at, for example, a bright yellow, it’s like experiencing the wonder of it for the first time again and it’s mesmerizing. Sometimes I have a hard time trying not to stare at certain colors I see. I might be broken.
I was thirteen years old when I went to the doctor by myself because a cut on my eyelid wasn’t healing. I was asked about my birth control, sexual activity, and whether I thought I could be pregnant (after saying I’ve never had sex) then pushed out of the examination room after NOT having my eye examined at all.
As an adult, I realize now how terrible that was and I would have done something about it if it had happened to me today. But at the time I was so embarrassed and hurt, I just pushed all thought of it away until years later.