There’s no freedom in having to do something but you’re also not free to choose your wants.
Maybe it’s better to just live and let life happen instead of thinking about what could’ve been. What ever happened is the only thing that could’ve happened.
That doesn’t imply any kind of freedom either. It’s what you wanted to do wether consciously or not.
Sounds like you’re categorically defining everything someone does without being forced as “want”. But who is the “you” that wanted to do it if you’re not conscious of that want? Do I breathe while in a coma because I want to? Do I stop breathing because I want to? Or does my low-level biology force me in those cases?